Confessions: a perfectly-imperfect riff.

Recently, Christine (who I adore and am so glad I just met!!) wrote a fun post called ‘confessions‘ and I loved it and thought it would make for a great post myself. So, here goes, my riff on ‘confessions’ – perfectly-imperfect.

  1. For as much as I preach on about numbers not mattering and it’s all in how you feel, I confess that sometimes they do ‘count,’ especially when you see the number (on the scale, accidentally!) and are floored by how…good it is. And how proud you feel. And how much you want to hate how proud you felt at JUST A NUMBER. But float on cloud 9 all day as a result.
  2. …but that same number can still turn me into a tailspin of ‘what if’s’ – what if it wasn’t right, what if she read it wrong, what if, what if, what if. there I go, stealing my own joy again.
  3. As often as I crave veggies galore (and kabocha, specifically), I probably crave chocolate – and wine – equally as much, if not more.
  4. For as much as I love running, I hate running. Just a titch. (but I really do love it. No, really. LOL)
  5. I can’t go to bed with dirty dishes in the sink. Or anywhere, for that matter. Yet, I *can* leave a dishwasher full of clean dishes for 24 hours and wash every dish by hand because I hate emptying the dishwasher and was waiting for M to do it ;-)
  6. As much as I love social media, I kinda hate it too. Is that weird? I’m rarely on Twitter (getting back to it a little bit), but am all over instagram and snapchat, like whoa.
  7. As hard as I’m working at squashing the comparison-itis bug, I still do it. More often than I’d like to admit, but I have gotten better, much better.
  8. I think I run faster than I did last winter, outside. I have no gauge to that, however, except how I feel, since I don’t, never have, and never will, run with a Garmin (see #1. numbers!).
  9. I am a terrible bullshit artist. If I am caught on a call with a question and it was that very moment I decided to zone out into Facebook-land, thinking my ‘part’ of the call was done, bam, question for moi. I don’t try to fake a real reason, because that’s far more obvious than owning up. Yes?
  10. I have zero attention span these days when it comes to TV. Unless it is Chopped or some other Food Network show, I can’t be bothered. I’d rather just sit on the couch, next to M, and zone out to whatever he’s watching. I used to be a DvR QUEEN and watch tons of shows. Now? notsomuch. Does that make me old? or weird? or both?
  11. bonus confession – for as much as I *think* I’m doing awesome in the ‘letting go’ and giving up control thing, I seriously suck at it. I can do it for, say, a day, but then I’m back to my type A, uber particular ways. Gosh, this is a hard one to break.

So, there ya have it, my perfectly-imperfect confessions. Care to share any? ;-)

 

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16 thoughts on “Confessions: a perfectly-imperfect riff.

  1. This post made me smile–I am with you on the dishes..cannot and will not have a dirty dish in the sink before I go to bed (no dish washer)!

  2. Oh I love this and so glad that you wrote this!! I totally hear you about social media – definitely love/hate and then a little more love and hate. And the dirty dishes drive me crazy. My husband has no problem leaving them there overnight but it drives me batty but I also usually don’t have enough in me to actually wash the dishes before going to bed :-) xo wanna come back and play in NYC?

    1. I cannot leave dirty dishes overnight, it’s just gross! A cup or a plate, sure, but dirty dishes from making dinner? not a chance ;-) I do wanna come back and play!

  3. Ha, I wonder if you are trying to fight your natural personality too much by trying to let go! Not that it’s not worth trying. I just keep thinking of all my traits that I am not a fan of, and how you always encourage me to love them. ;)

    I don’t have your problem with dishes, and I definitely crave wine/chocolate more than veggies. ;)

    1. Well I think I will never FULLY be able to let go and be too loosy-goosey a I envision becoming but I do think it is really good for me to do more of, because I am FAR too particular! I do love my particular-ness lol, I just know not everyone around me does ;-)

      dirty dishes, yes, that one will never go away ;-)

  4. me and me some more! love this post! I cannot stand dishes in my sink. I’d rather go to work with dirty, unwashed hair because I washed my dishes instead of showering.

  5. I’m more on the loosey goosey side! I love how honest this is! I learned to embrace the true me and love me for it. Luckily I found someone to share my life with who doesn’t put pressure on me to be different than who I am either. It’s a burden I carried my whole life until recently and I can’t tell you how freeing it is. Washing the dishes at night before bed will be one of those things your future kids remember fondly about you when you are gone…it’s a detail that makes you – you. <3

    1. I LOVE that you found someone that doesn’t want you to change! M wouldn’t change me either, he balances me 1000%. I just know I could be a little looser than I am and be happy that way! I love the sentiment about future kinds remembering that detail about me, good point :)

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